The Daddy Dom Podcast - Ep10 - Vulnerable 

 

 Being vulnerable is difficult for a Daddy Dom because it doesn't make us very Dom.  Doesn't make us feel very Dom at all,  but it is part of us. 

 

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And welcome to the Daddy Dom Podcast.  My intention of this episode isn't to be somber, isn't to be sad, isn't to be, Oh, woe is me.  But it is  designed to draw. light to the fact that daddies are human too.  And we're vulnerable.  We accept the weight of the world upon our shoulders. We love  the fact that we can be the pillar of support  for our little ones, as well as all the ones around us. 

 

But it does come with a price.  It's hard bearing that weight.  It takes its toll,  and  sometimes,  daddies need comfort too.  As much as I would like to think I am Superman and can do all the things all the time,  that's simply not the case. The world isn't designed like that.  We are just the same fragile human beings as everybody else and we need our time and space  to  alleviate, to  release, to  reconnect, to find our center and our  and our happiness. 

 

For me, finding that space is time alone in the woods.  For me, sometimes that space is just being alone so I can just breathe  without any outside  or foreign or  exterior pressures upon me.  And I want The little's to know that  as much as you need your daddy and you want him around all the time,  sometimes you need to let him go just for a little while  so he can breathe again, regain his strength again, his internal fortitude.

 

And  sometimes it just takes a little bit of time to be silent  so you can connect all the pieces,  make connections. better decisions,  understand better  what has happened and what is happening in the world around you and with the relationship with you  and your little one  so you can be  that pillar of support.

 

You can be a wiser and more  intuitive Daddy Dom. 

 

And sometimes  that weight gets  away from us.  And I know when I'm in the gym sometimes and I'm like, I'm going to do it. I'm going to push myself. I'm going to get to that point. And  you get to that breaking point.  I don't like getting to that breaking point. I like to  disseminate that stress over time.  But sometimes that stress  gets to a breaking point  and  it's nothing against  our little, it's nothing against  the relationship we have.

 

It's nothing against  you.  It's just me needing that time, needing that space because I don't want to burden you with that.  I don't want to make that. 

 

Here's the thing.  I don't like bringing down people around me. I want to lift them up. I want to encourage them. I want to  be their cheerleader.  And when I can't do that, it's kind of feels like I'm disappointing you.  So in order to do that better,  I need that break sometimes.  And I need you to support me in that break.

 

Knowing that has nothing to do with you, has nothing to do with a relationship. It's just Daddy needing some time alone to gather my thoughts  and come back a better man.  A wiser Daddy.  A better Daddy.  A more loving Daddy.  Sometimes that just takes an afternoon. Sometimes it takes a day or two.  But it's imperative for  our little. 

 

To give and understand that place,  give us the time to breathe  so we can be better and more supportive for you,  to be that pillar of strength for you.  A while back,  I think it was in episode three,  I did a podcast on listening to crickets  where I find you just staring out into the space of night listening to crickets. 

 

And I come up from behind you,  and I grab you,  and I tell you that  I will hold all your broken pieces.  And that's what Daddy Doms truly do, is hold all your broken pieces,  and tell you that you are the only one. 

 

Likewise, Daddy Doms need that back.  Not only do we need the space and time to gather ourselves, we also need the support of our little ones.  To sometimes take.  The lead, not necessarily the lead, but the support  to take on some of our burden,  some of the daily things, some of the bigger things, some of the smaller things.

 

Sometimes  daddies need that support. And where do we want it? The only place we want it from is from our littles. 

 

Now it means so much,  you know?  Yeah.  Now, again, none of this is to say that I don't like being a daddy Dom. It is the highlight. of my life,  but the stresses of all the other things in life come into play. So  in no way, as I said, this has anything to do with you or our relationship as a DDLG relationship.

 

It's usually the weight of the world that comes upon me.  And those are the things that we have to manage as well as everything else. So again, it's not a somber moment. It's just a managing moment that daddy needs to work through his brain and his emotions and his heart to get to a place where.  He feels himself again. 

 

Being vulnerable is difficult for a daddy dom because it doesn't make us very dom.  Doesn't make us feel very dom at all.  But it is part of us.  It's part of the human part of us.  And we have to accept it.  And we have to manage it.  And so does our littles. 

Sometimes in that time of being alone, I just take a shower,  you know, alone.  And I wrote a poem about that and I don't again mean to make this a somber moment, but it was all the feelings I want to express  in that moment while I take a shower to release all the pressures and burgeons and the weight. of being a Daddy Dom that sometimes it can be. 

 

It's a happy moment,  because it's the moment I get to breathe again afterwards  and be the best Daddy Dom I can be for you.  Earbuds in. 

 

POEM - I Take A Shower

 

I cry in the shower every day.  

I cry so the water will wash these tears away.  

Deep breaths and  muffled sighs.  

Hugging my body and massaging my thighs.  

This sanctuary where I can just  crumble and die.  

 

I cry when it's more than I can bear.  

I cry so I can be stronger out there.  

The superhero.  The pillar.  The answer to all questions. 

The secret place for those things we don't mention. 

 

I cry in the shower to release the burden.  

To cleanse myself of the knots that are  hurting. 

 

Ten minutes.  Twenty.  Maybe more.  

The steam is now thick.  And the water, hot. 

I've been in here longer than I thought. 

 

I cry here so no one else can see.  

I cry in the loneliness that fills me. 

I cry  so I can carry on.  

Be the one everyone leans on.  

I cry in the shower so I can rise. 

 

Sometimes I take a shower.  Just so I can cry.